They say that the longest journey begins with the first step. And boy, does this journey seem to have taken me forever. I've made the decision that it's time to adopt. I need to get a move on too, since I'm not getting any younger.
So, I'm starting special classes this week. Here, In Florida, it's called MAPP. Not sure what that stands for right now, but I'm guessing I will soon. There are children that truly need loving homes and I have plenty of love to give. Adopting from the state means that there is no need for the thousands of dollars that are spent on a private adoption, and the truth is I don't have that kind of money to spend ... few people do. I have love, laughter, music, and faith to spare and that is what I'm bringing to the table.
I've wanted to be a mother my whole life. At fourteen the doctors told me that despite the fact that Turner's Syndrome made me extra maternal that it would never happen for me. " Just get on the adoption list as soon as you're married," they told me.
Get real, most of us don't find our White Knight waiting to rescue us and I'm not content any longer to await that magical moment. I'm watched my friends and family procreate and have 13 nieces and nephews who I love madly. My best friend's little boy is twelve now and even though I live far from him he is still the GREATEST thing. He's growing up to be such a good young man and it just makes me smile. I was with him EVERY day for the first year of his life and I can't imagine loving any kid more than I love Max. I guess I want to give it a try.
I've done foster care, and it's a terrific organization. Let me tell you it's rough. I loved it for the most part, but it's time that I get the amazing opportunity to raise a child myself. That kind of gift isn't one I take lightly. I am scared to death, but then I think any smart parent must be.
I just wanted to take a moment and put into words how excited, nervous, and hopeful I am right now. I know something wonderful is in store for me as I take on this task. These classes, then hopefully a child, will be keeping me busy but I plan to keep everyone posted along the way.